Step Back

For years I lived my life in the shadows. I liked to step back from the picture and look at it instead of living in it. In that time I thought that I learned a few things that would better people, but that was my mistake. One day I thought that I should live in that picture. It started off rough as any new adventure does, but it soon became good. I went on living and trying to help those I cared for. I tryed to teach them all that I have seen and learned, but at last I failed. With the way things have been going, I feel like I have done more evil then good. Instead of saving or helping, I have destroyed. Maybe it is time for me to step back again. At least that way the world is not affected by my poison. It is time for me to stop being selfish and let others find their own happiness, for God knows I can't give it to them. It is time for me to let others live their lives. For those of you I hurt, I am sorry. For those of you I have not hurt yet, it is good that I step back now before I do. And for those who may care, I am still around, and I will still help, but only when you really truly need me.

God Be With You Till We Meet Again

Today I went to the MTC to drop my sister off. She started her mission today. She is going to the New York New York South Mission. I am happy that she has made the decision to serve a mission but it is hard to deal with the fact that she is not going to be around for the next 18 months. She has always been one of my best friends. In fact since we are only a year and a half apart and we "look" alike, we tell everyone that we are twins. As we were saying our goodbyes, my brother broke down. Just seeing him brought some tears to my eyes. As I said it is going to be hard to deal with her not being there. I just have to say that I love her and I will miss her. God be with her until we meet again.