Keep Moving On

Once again life has thrown me a curvball. I have to admit that is was more my doing then anything else. I made a big deal over something that I can't control. I lost someone that is really important to me and I may not be able to get them back. It was my own fault that I was foolish enough to let them leave and slip through my fingers. As a matter of fact this has happened a few times with the same person. With some luck they have given me another chance, but I don't think it will happen this time. This time I think that it may be for good. If I get this person back or not is up to them. But no matter what happens I will keep moving on.

This person has helped me in so many ways. First they have helped me with my anger. Yes I know I have anger problems, but they have not been as bad since I was with her. Sadly to say I still have some, but with time I think that I can have them all under control.

She has also given me hope for the future. Yes I know the future would be better if she was in it, but it is going to be great with or with out her. I know that I will be able to find me a good job that will help me with the things that I want; my own place and a family. This may sound werid for those who know me. I always said that I would not get married anytime soon, maybe in 5 or so years I would. Now I can see myself getting married a lot sooner.

Looking at all the good things the future holds for me, I am not as scared of it. I know that my life is going to have bumps in the road, but when all is said and done, it is going to be a good life. The reason I say that is because I am going to make it a good life.

Don't get me wrong, I am dying inside over the one I lost. She was put in my life for a reason. I hope that it was not just to show my how wonderful life can be. I hope that she will always be in my life. Only time will tell, but I will keep moving on and accomplish my goals and dreams.